Approx. 4,5 years ago there was a lazy Sunday afternoon. Like on many other lazy Sunday afternoons, I spend the few hours before dinner watching the tv. And so it happened that I walked into a comedy/drama called ‘Wide Awake’.
I never thougth this movie would make such an impression, wasn’t it for the amazing acting skills of the young Joseph Cross (Joshua). Today, April 20th 2009, I tried to find the movie for watching it again. I could only find a piece of the ending, showing main character Joshua telling his classmates and the sister about his year in the 5th grade.
I could finally understand myself. Why I chose this little boy to grow out to a main character in my own story, and even adapted his name. The devotion this young Joshua shows to find God and ask Him about his grandfather who passed away, doesn’t differ that much from me growing up. His manner reflects how all children can be: curious, playfull and afraid at the same time. And how they at certain moments in their lives discover things: the meaning of being ill, the way familiy members are related, the way it works outside their own little world, what you feel by losing people, and why…
I’ll keep searching for the whole film, and even though Joshua did not acutally write his own lines, he is very convincing by telling them the camera:
“The fifth grade was the most rigorous and toughest year yet.
Before this year, everything was bad man action fgures and ninja turtles cartoons. Now there’s family, friends and girls.
Before this year bullies were just bullies for no reason. Weirdos were just weird. And dare devils weren’t afraid of anything.
Before this year people I loved, lived forever. I spend this year looking for something, I wanted to see everything around me. It was like I was asleep before and finally woke up.
Know what: I’m wide awake now.”