About Me and My Blog

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I am likely to start a career in the wonderful art of [music] and/or [writing], but still completely interested in [environmental] and [social] sciences. Therefore, on my blog you’ll find a relevant reflection of what I [think about], what I’ve [seen], what I’ve [done], what I [shouldn't do] (anymore) and what I’ve

[written] – [composed] – [drawn]

[designed] – [produced] – [converted]

[constructed] – [destroyed]

and

[made up]

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Most posts will be written in the universal language of [English], some will appear in my mother-language [Nederlands], and perhaps so now and then you’ll realise that you and I are just as alike as anyone else.

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Colours

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flashing colours all around

trickling sweat

smelling it

alcoholic drinks and disguise

just fake smiles and empty eyes

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bad music, bad ass drums

bad remix

don’t you recognize?

bad advances, I am

unwilling, don’t you see?

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I feel locked up and pretend

obey the rhythm

though it’s dull

refugees so blind, concerned?

ease me quickly, ease my heart

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playing sunshine, filthy scum

though by mid-day

you rule the world

I don’t see the fun, do you?

dance me a honest reply

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remaining only colours

soar throat

dusty eyes

wine invading narrow veins

nothing valuable

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lazy night, lousy hours

waking up with

twittering

the world still is, hello

will you carry me goodbye?

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Silly drug addict

Sweet giggling I´m feeding you

eye lashes jumping up and down

try, drink, taste and feel

don´t feel, I say, don´t try

you cannot buy, you’re broke

are you?

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Showing me all your money

can’t call you honey, I don’t need to

use my fake smile to inhale

live with me in bubblegum balloons

I’ll build you everything

out of lies

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Your expectations out of reach

conversations with death row destination

such a pity, but you manage to inhale

a willing girl`s scent, you smoke

doubting behaviour like a

cigarette

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Let me inject you some awareness

and accidentally clash your cherished dreams

stop swallowing me like pleasure pills

you’ll break, you silly drug addict

dwelling at he artistic scene

don´t

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Tear drops I can´t shed for you

you said I shouldn´t fear the needle stick

don´t pretend to be my savior

you push ´n force; you listen now

I can´t be your ecstasy

nor your heroine

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Hey, do I need to confess?

write you an apology? sorry, can’t cure you

okay, regrets, pointing where?

it is no use, I will just sigh

you talking love, I close my eyes

just go

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Calviron, darlings

Addicted to profound pain

begging to receive more

the distorted lies mellow

orders become faith

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Feed the addiction, run

and ruin this puzzle mess

the sanity flushed away

mercy became extinct

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Any soldier an addict

taking lifes just as many

as the soldiers take themselves

Cal becomes their boon

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The drug controls inferiors

soothing inconvenience

a ragged piece of utopia

remnants of the lesser hell

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O, sing me a drug lullaby

feeding on what I just feel

me seeing thoughts so valueble

floating past the gates of hell

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Melt me, Calviron

all paths lead me to you

my little, perfect darlings, o

hell no I´ll ease this pain

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